letsrunaway paranoid minds.

OST Cinta Melody | Aishiteru - Zivilia Band

2012-01-14T17:48:00.001+08:00

2012-01-13T19:22:00.000+08:00

I seek for peace, and often in peace I found myself mending the broken pieces in my inner self where I find silence is the source of medication to heal the doubts in me. I’m a loser, waking up and believe that everyday is a challenge but where do I go from here? Cause every night when I go to sleep, I find myself standing still at the starting point not moving at all. And I keep doing that continuously, constantly, repeating it for years. I might have taken a few baby steps, but the big ones? No, not yet.. not so soon, I’m still afraid of losing. But how do I encounter all these fears I’m having? I need to make a move, to change my life.

I define my thoughts equivalently as wine. My thoughts are bitter, and it has been kept for so many years. I wish I could find that perfect time to pour my heart out to the right one who truly admires, understand my thoughts. I think the saddest part of my life is I can’t even figure out what’s going wrong in my life. In different aspects of life, I have almost everything everyone would crave for, but humans live in criticism and sarcasm, yet sarcasm is always the lowest form of weak. I’ve seen/heard too much of sarcasm, I’m tired of this shit.

What would happen if one day we just put away all the negative thoughts and just smile to the universe? Smile to the strangers, smile to the people you once hate, forgive all the faults, forget about what’s actually pulling you down and just keep moving on.

I seek for peace, because that is the only way to get rid of myself from the reality.

Reality is cruel I have to admit that.

2011-12-20T02:37:00.001+08:00

The good old times. Taken last year, 2010. w/ Jing Jing & li Mun.

I have 99 problems and there's no way for me to solve 'em.

2011-12-20T02:33:00.000+08:00

I always have this little feeling that lingers inside of me every time I wanted to pen down my thoughts. Too much of thoughts perhaps, or maybe I just don’t want people to understand me at all. I wish they could, you know? Distance set me apart to see things clearer, and in my position I’ve seen too much of the ugly truths within a person, and people. They just don’t really bother or care anyway. People show concerns, asking questions if you’re fine vice versa, but in the end of the day, that isn’t really what they care about. I’ve learnt that all human beings are selfish no matter how hard they try not to or claim that they are not.

I am so afraid of losing; in fact I’ve spent the entire of my time trying to strive in every single aspects of life. While trying, I unintentionally missed out all the good things. They are invisible, you do not feel them nor sense them. The good things are the flow of excitement running through you veins, for no reason you think that being alive is the most gracious thing on earth, and the people walking on the streets pretty much light up your life. Yes, that’s the feeling that I missed. I miss how simple life was, how I walked on the street with my headphone on playing through my favorite tracks and finding every step that I take is the right thing to do.

But I’m drowning, falling apart into the bottomless pit… I’m lost, and I lost faith in myself. I just need a break, a get away, to find my way back.

Tiesto? Zoukout?

2011-12-11T00:50:00.002+08:00

Damn, i've been ranting my anger all over Twitter, complaining about not being able to attend Tiesto & Zoukout. Oh well, I could have gone for Tiesto getting high to the maximum, getting drunk all over the place, party with the strangers and waking up the next day with a fucked-up and drunken mind along with a massive headache - hang over. And, what's next? Oh, last minute revision for my algebra and chemistry which I highly doubt that would do me any good, or in another way, I would probably leave the exam hall after half an hour feeling a rush of guilt towards myself and most importantly, my parents. Then, I might spend the entire semester break hoping for a miracle that somewhere or somehow my results might turn out good. But heck, life's a bitch and I've been dealing with it over and over again.

Alright, back to the point. So perhaps choosing not to go for the rave party is actually a wise choice, yeah?

One week till I'm home, excited to the max. The first thing I'll do once I'm done with my last paper is to partayyyyyy.

The Fray - Heartbeat

2011-12-05T20:13:00.000+08:00

2011-12-04T22:28:00.001+08:00

Dec 4, 2011

I came across the old post in my blog. Funny how things had changed, or time passed. Last year I was crazily in love with you, and now I’ve moved on and I know I had made the right move. But I bet you’d never understand the pain and struggle I’ve been through. You claimed that you loved me but those were just words without meaning. I once had so much faith on you, I trusted you so blindly and now I guess having faith doesn’t mean that love will last. Then, things got so messed up. I knew it was coming, but I never thought it would come that fast, and I forgave you. Hell, that was definitely one big mistake. Now when I think about it, those times that we had it was all nightmares. People said if you ever loved somebody, reminiscing back the old times would definitely bring you back to the sweet old memories. Well I guess you surely did left a scar in my past, it doesn’t hurt me, at all, but it felt like a paper cut cutting right through me. Those empty promises, lies, unfaithfulness finally brought me the courage to end those nightmares. I tried so hard, I was barely standing still anymore, and I was in pain. When you got so tired of trying hard to stand still, holding on to the belief that why did you even started getting into this relationship, you got drown and pulled down, that’s even worst than getting choke on the neck or drown into the sea suffocating. It’s the disappointment the kills me.

But baby it was tough to finally let go of a 9 months relationship, to crashed down everything that we had built together, but the feeling was great. I’m happier than ever.

Birdy - Skinny Love [Official Video]

2011-05-19T16:03:00.000+08:00

Trip to Bangkok - Kickstart the year of 2011!

2011-04-26T00:14:00.047+08:00

The long awaiting vacation to kickstart the beginning of 2011 had finally arrived together with my babes, Limun, faye and xiang nee. oh, and not to forget faye's daddy! :D It was really awesome I can say. Bangkok is like heaven for shopaholics, and for us, we shopped till drop, carrying our big shopping bags everywhere. I wish I was a millionaire, so I can grab all the stuffs over there! It's a hell lot cheaper than shopping at the boutique over here in M'sia! Just tell me what kind of dresses or designs your looking for, and you can find it over there and I ain't joking about it.

Breakfast in Mcd @ LCCT.

Let me introduce you, Faye's daddy.

xiang nee and faye.

limun, me and xiang nee.

Finally arrived in Bangkok after 2 hours flight.

Sitting outside our hotel, checking out the maps in Bangkok.

Tuk-Tuk!

Seriously their train is even better than M'sia!

Some sort of fish cake if i'm not mistaken.

Outside Siam Paragon.

Madame Tussauds! :D

hehehe, us taking pictures with Obama! ;)

It's me and my tiara... :P

It's me and Tiger Woods and our golf sticks.

LOSERRRRRRR! *PUNCH*!

OOMAIGODD.. US + WILL SMITHHHH! HAHA

This street is full with Japanese restaurant.

Finally settled down at this Thai food restaurant.

Tomyam is at must try!

Pork Rib.

The 2nd day.... that's when the shopping starts.

Us getting ready.

Okay, no pictures for shopping cause none of us brought our camera along. This is me trying to look like a ghost with the torchlight we found in the Tuk-tuk. On our way for dinner at Cabbages&Condoms. :)

This are my favoriteeeeeee! :D

Christmas Tree that made by condomssssss.

This is a club we passed by.

The next day having our dinner at the streets of Sukhumvit, Bangkok.

Imitating someone. :)

*yum yum yum yum*!

The last day, before checking out from our hotel.

Limun looks like a Japanese isn't she? kawaii oo :P

On our way to Siam Paragon for some movie session and lunch.

Awesome cinema, cooler than the ones in M'sia!

This very spicy rice I had, couldn't even finish it.

Our movie tickets, 190baht and was watching some lousy shit ass movie.

Last picture taken before leaving the cinema.

So then we headed back to our hotel to get our luggage and went to the airport. This 5days4nights trip was amazing, and shopping was awesomely insane! I recommend you few places that you MUST! go, Madame Tussauds, Platinum Mall - the craziest place for shopping, even more better than Chatuchak! And it's a wholesale mall! And for sure Cabbages&Condoms, not to forget try their cinema, I'm sure there's something that's gonna surprise you :) So what are you waiting for? Grab your credit card and start booking tickets to Bangkok! I'm planning for another trip to Bangkok again next year, so why not? :)

2011-04-23T08:11:00.001+08:00

Hello, Saturday. :)

Pride - Syntax

2011-04-22T03:46:00.000+08:00

Holla 2011!

2011-04-20T02:09:00.012+08:00

Hello peeps, I'm trying to keep up with all my overdue posts thought it's a lil' too late to talk about how I celebrated my new year's eve. But as the saying goes, it's better to be late than never, agree?

Well, this was meant to be a gift. But not anymore. :)

Some gossiping on bbm with the babes.

Football fever.

Group photo :)

Well, celebrated new year's eve at The Curve, Damansara. Was bad cause there was this idiot who sprayed on me and my hair was totally soaked and sticky, but besides that it was all good though there wasn't any alcohol that night. But my night ended up with disappointments and tears by someone who always took me for granted and that I'm feeling grateful because all that nightmares was already gone, and for now I'm glad for whatever decisions I've made and goals to achieve in the future. :)

2011-03-28T16:54:00.001+08:00

I'M SERIOUSLY IN NEED FOR A NEW PAIR OF SUN GLASSES!

Jason Mraz ft. James Morrison- Details in The Fabric

2011-03-27T22:28:00.000+08:00

Singapore - Dec' 2010

2011-02-18T01:55:00.024+08:00

I'm truly sorry as this was supposed to be blogged about two months back and forgive me for my sucky internet services I have at home, and also Subang. So no matter how long it takes me to upload this pictures, I will definitely complete this post. Decided to go to S'pore for the Universal Studio since I had no plans on last Dec', and also celebrated my X'mas over there. But X'mas in S'pore was dull, probably I've been there for too many times that's why there was nothing special about it anymore. No matter what, I still love S'pore because it's convenient, the MRT is fast but definitely not during the peak hours cause it's gonna be ultra crowded and ugh, I HATE THAT! Other than that, ION shopping mall, Takashimaya, Vivo City, Marina Bay, Bugis, Sentosa and strolling around Chinese Garden are still my favorite place to go! :)

Having McD breakfast with Kevin, before he dropped me off at the airport. :) Leave me a comment if you're interested.

Messing around with Kevin's iPhone.

Yeah, here I am, in S'pore. This is called the Chinese Garden.

Very fast and convenient MRT! Me likey!

Went to this restaurant at Toa Payoh.

Kronenburg + pork that comes in a shape of snail + orange juice :)

And the tongue piercing is no longer there.

Universal studio. With Bryan + Bryan's friend.

Me and my sista :D

Having dimsum as dinner at this mall, Vivo City.

Marina Bay. ;)

Last day, at the terminal :)

Well, if you don't mind, I actually skipped a hell lots of pictures. I'm having problem to upload 5 pictures in the same time, Blogger please be more efficient, thanks. I was there in Singapore for about 10 days and if i'd given a chance, I would love to go to Universal Studio again, save more cash and shop in Orchard and also will have to visit Little India the next time. :)

rock songs fever.

2011-02-14T02:33:00.002+08:00

Hello, I know I know that I've been abandoning my blog once again. I haven't gotten a chance to blog due to the slow connection back in Subang, or even worst that it wasn't working at all. I'm back to my hometown for more than two weeks, and honestly, I've been hanging out almost everyday with friends, drinking session on every weekends, and yes I consumed a huge amount of alcohol ever since our pre-cny celebration for almost a week. Life was amazing I can say! Well, I was supposed to fly back to Subang last Thursday, but I felt so reluctant to leave all my friends in Kota Bharu, and so I burned my flight ticket away and decided to fly back on this coming Saturday for my dearest Faye's birthday dinner.

This holiday wouldn't be so meaningful and full of excitement without you guys. I love you peoples! :D (Limun, Jing, Chia Yong, Jun Kok, Kheng Liang, Eubie, Lawrence Ho, Kai Jeck, Gary and Rui Hao), I LOVE YA'LL!! :DD

Lastly, Happy Valentine's to everyone out there. No matter if you're taken, or you aren't, It's still Valentine's day! So grab someone you love be it your partner, parents, siblings or friends, (it's still the same) and have a good time tonight. :) I'm single, but I'm lucky to have my lovely adorable cutie lil' friends with me :P so after all, I ain't lonely. :)

Stay tune for the next upcoming post about my trip to S'pore back in Dec.

Now playing: The Corrs - So Young

The Temper Trap - Science of Fear

2011-01-29T18:41:00.000+08:00

insight.

2010-12-28T07:21:00.002+08:00

I guess, I've care too much about how people judge me.

It's time, for me to take a break. Not giving a damn what people have in mind of my imperfections.

I've had enough to fit in myself, to become someone else that I shouldn't be.

Why? To make sure there is not a single flaws in me that you can see.

But it's pretty tiring, everyone deserves a break, so do I.

I may not be perfect, 'cause no one else is perfect as it seems easy to say in words. :)

Now playing: Mogwai - Take me somewhere nice

Fuck-ed.

2010-12-25T21:50:00.002+08:00

Worst Christmas ever I can say.

Kelate, me hometown.

2010-12-23T23:47:00.026+08:00

And as what I had mentioned before, I was back in my hometown for exactly two weeks. I had tons of fun especially with Limun, Chiayong and Junkok! Yeah, we did hell lots of things!

This guy he likes to go to toilet 24/7

This is called, Kau Jam! Our traditional food :)

Noob!

Let's call him pembuka air nyok!

Som Tam.

Yes, coconut! And its delicious :)

Rui Hao, Chia Yong, me and Limun.

Wishing Pond. :)

We are throwing coins.

Okay, I am very traditional one, I pray!

He's our ah sei covering us with the umbrella. Aw, so nice of him.

See, he's going to toilet again!

Dinner at Ban Suan.

At Station One. A newly opened shop at my hometown, and the environment is actually not that bad though.

One of the best shot by Limun. There was actually a plane coming down but yeah, Limun kinda missed it. :(

Went for swimming at Renaissance.

There she goes, "GOTCHA! _|_" :P

Meena Curry rice.

And this restaurant is a must to go, Cheng Mai Restaurant.

That's Limun at the hair salon preparing for her b'day party. And that was my last day in my hometown. Flew back to Subang and was rushing most of the time, went straight to Mist club for Limun's b'day, and she's finally 19! :D And yeah I do miss home a lot.

Now playing: The National - Gospel

toffee nut frap! :)

2010-12-20T06:58:00.003+08:00

Good morning and is 7:03AM right now. Currently at Subang airport and flying off to S'pore for a week. :) And yes, still not able to be active on blogging. Net is slow and was in my hometown for 2 weeks spending quality time with friends. Aw, I'm missing Limun, Chia Yong, Jun Kok already! We were sucha joker and I was hanging with them everyday, I mean EVERYDAY! How can I not miss 'em :(

ps. I miss this guy who is so far away right now :(

2010-12-13T19:08:00.000+08:00

and yes, i miss you. :)

Back!

2010-12-12T20:47:00.002+08:00

And yes, I am back! Mama's back yo! *running around the room*!!!
Oh okay, *cough* yes, I'm finally back after being hiatus for several months. I've lost track of how it feels to blog, to keep track and ensure that there are people who reads my blog.
But well, fuck it then since I've been away for so long. I've lost all the links I had, so I'll link 'em back one another if I found all the links. I've missed out so many thing to post, to blog about but since It's been a long time, I wont bother about posting the old pictures tho, perhaps you can check it out in my Facebook account, but I usually delete the old albums after a few months. =)

For now, I am enjoying my one month semester break, and deciding what's next to do, some really big decision to make so I'm taking it slow to see things in a different view :)

Past few months was a history, shit happened and I've made it, or I wouldn't be typing over here. Good things are always meant to be a part of the memory, isn't it? I am looking forward, for what's coming ahead.

adios.

Attention Please! :)

2010-07-21T18:01:00.007+08:00

I don't know if anyone are still visiting at this old abandoned blog of mine, but i'm here to say that i'm no longer updating on blogger. Maybe I'll come back to blogger to show my loyalty to it, but who knows when?
Anyways, please follow me on tumblr, which i'm quite active on it recently!
papertigers//
FOLLOW ME ON TUMBLR! :D

And I'm weeping warm honey and milk, that you stay surrounding me, surrounding me.

2010-06-11T05:25:00.004+08:00

Never thought I'd love like this.
Making you upset is tearing me apart.
I couldn't speak up a word, 'cause I have too many thoughts running through my mind.

Honey, we will make it through this time.
'cause we are meant to be, and we will never fall apart.

Because being with you is magical enough,
everything seems so real whenever you are by my side.
And never ever I will let you go.

i love you.

One day trip back in KB.

2010-05-20T16:35:00.008+08:00

This took me like forever to upload, but yeah i'm in a very lazy mood now so I shall just leave the pictures alone and that explains everything.

Lunch at Meena curry house.

First step leading you to hell :)

Yummy..

Then as usual, we went to the temple for the wishing tree.

Went to the Tok bali beach that i've been wanting to go for so long.

Dinner at Cheang Mai at night.

Sorry for the lazy mode. Will update a proper post the next time. Take care! ;)

You're the best thing that summer gave me.

2010-05-02T02:07:00.002+08:00

Being with you is like riding on a roller coaster. 'Cause whenever I'm feeling so low and lost without you, in the next minute, you are there to make me smile and laugh like there's no tomorrow.
I love messing around with you, and I just simply love everything about you.
13 days to go..

P.S. Would you lay me down beside you, tell me everything I want to hear.

The Garden//Mid Valley//SS15

2010-04-28T20:49:00.007+08:00

Due to so much complains from Li mun and Jing jing, I think I should really update my blog this time. So, on Friday night, I was celebrating Arfu's birthday. After a few shots of Jack Daniels, I was still sober so I went home and slept in the morning and managed to wake up when Jing jing called me. Toy Sei fetched me to the KL Sentral and pick the others up and he dropped us at Mid Valley. Thanks to Ah Sei so that I don't have to travel by the KTM all by myself! :) So, 4 of us, me, Limun, Jing jing and Jing yu went to The Garden and bought our movie tickets first and we went to this Taiwan restaurant in The Garden for lunch. Okay, I don't remember the name of the restaurant so gimme a second to google it. Okay, done! It's called the Crystal Jade Restaurant, yeah! Been there once with Jeck and the others, and since our dear Limun really wanted to try, so we went there. I recommend you guys to try their beef, 'cause it's really tasty.. *yum yum* and the food there is fulfilling, so it's worth for paying extra bucks for it.

I don't remember the name man, but it's some crispy chicken.

Limun's.

Jing jing's.

Some green bean ice kacang with ice cream, but it's really nice.

Mine.

Nah, not my favorite.

So, after lunch we went for our movie called When In Rome and it's awesome. I sprained my ankle when I was walking down from the stairs in the cinema, and Limun fell asleep and missed out the ending of the movie! :/ Moral of the story: Be careful when you are walking down from the stairs next time, and make sure you have enough sleep before watching the movie!

After movie, we went to our usual hang out spot, Starbucks which located inside the bookstore name Borders. Damn I seriously like that place 'cause you can just pick out one of your favorite book and bring it to Starbucks and read and in the same time, indulge with a cup of caramel. EPIC! I bought a novel for my mom and sat at Starbucks for a while waiting for Limun to finish her reading. We then went to Mid Valley and watched the ManU match for a while, then I bought something for my sister and we went back to Subang.

Okay, seriously there's no pictures so far so I'll just make it short and simple. When we reached Subang, we played pool for a while den I brought the guys to have dinner at this arab restaurant called Sinbad. I kinda like their food, but only a few.. and also the shisha. After dinner, went to slack at Kevi's place and drink, and somebody got tipsy! *cough cough* Chilled there and done some bullshit but time flies and it's already 6 in the morning. I got so lazy 'cause I can't even walk properly so I just lied down and was thinking to bring the girls for breakfast. But plan failed and I woke up at 5! We watched a movie called Sex Pot then went for brunch+dinner at Ayam Penyet. Yeah, wearing the exact same clothings!

Soto ayam.

They leave after dinner so I went home and packed my stuffs. And, what else? Night was boring 'cause someone left me alone at home while that someone was studying the whole night but it's okay. I somehow managed to survived through the night :P Anyways, I'm back in my hometown for 3 weeks and I'll figure out what to do throughout this semester break when actually I personally have a lot of stuffs to settle.

Will be back soon when all the fun is over ! ;)

P.S. You made my day, by listening to the silly jokes of yours. :)

Now playing: David Cook - Light On

and when the rain comes, falling down, taking away my breathe.

2010-03-21T21:03:00.004+08:00

It's funny how things got both of us ended up this way.

Neither both of us know what is going on, neither both of us wants to care no more, neither both of could see the road lying in front of us.

Things got vague, uncertain, indefinite & unclear. But why are we still doing it?

You told me not to withhold, I said I am not doing this anymore.

But feelings don't lie, and I am not moving on.

And then you finally proved me wrong, that I shouldn't have faith in the very first place.

Emotional taking control of me; silence night seems to be a very long night.

I was trying to move on, carrying away the vulnerable heart, the words you whispered to me every night,

and you came back.

Forgiveness and mercy was given without a word.

I never try to fight for your word, 'cause you never believe how cruel it may be..

We tend to ignore the mistakes, continue living in the world of denial.

The Last Minute Decision.

2010-03-15T23:13:00.011+08:00

Anyways, fyi I've been going to Genting for a few times within this few months. It was decided last minute every time, for example this time, we are supposed to go for movie somewhere in the town, then Jeff came up with this idea : Eh come la we go Genting straight away, I need some inspiration for my video shooting also. So, off we go.

On the way..
Going to First World.

This 4 people tried this scary thing. I admit I'm afraid of height that's why I don't have the guts to play it anymore. Seriously need to get rid of this phobia.
Jeff was screaming: I hate you all! I hate you all!

Went for movie, but I forgot the name. But had a great time inside the cinema. My first time ever making so much noises inside there. :D
My face was really pale that day, maybe is due to my sickness.

My daddy :)

See, " chai shen ye! "

We had dinner at this Shang Hai restaurant, and we started to speak like the China slang. Fucking crazy tho.

I have no idea what he's trying to do -.-
Haha, so many pictures of you la Mun. :p

So far, no picture was taken yet :/ Nothing to update you people.. sad right. College has been good, been hanging around with Bobby & the gang very often these days. And Wee Horng is a crazy fans of this song, I'mma be by Black Eyed Peas. Haha! Nothing much to update tho.

edit:// Just got back from Mos. It sucks! Few kittens dancing circles on the dance floor? Wtf.

Faye's 19th Birthday.

2010-03-08T02:05:00.000+08:00

Update about my bff, Faye's 19th birthday bash in Maison. It's already like a routine that we have to celebrate her birthday in club every year. Last year when she turned 18, we celebrated her birthday in MOS, and that was my first time stepping into the club. Anyways, will just show you the pictures because at that night all we did was what people usually do in clubs, maybe another additional scene which is the birthday cake ceremony and everyone was playing with the cream instead of eating it. Everyone was wasted but that was truly an amazing night since I've been to clubs for several times. I study one okay, I don't club every time.

4 girls fighting for Arfu.

The birthday gal! Hot as usual.

Nice picture btw.

Hearts you!

Obscene. Don't get me wrong, it might looks like my tongue touches hers, but in fact, it's not what you guys think. Angle problem la weh

Had tons of fun that night. And yeah we will do it again some other time.
Off to bed.
Surprisingly I only missed 2 classes this week. I feel good.

p.s. So much to tell, I'll just wait for the right time.

Nineteen.

2010-03-05T19:18:00.004+08:00

"Cause when you're fifteen, somebody tells you they love you, you're gonna believe them."

But when you're nineteen, you realize that you don't really know what love is.

Cause when you're fifteen, you're living in your happy little world, being emo just because, and thinking you're always misunderstood.

But when you're nineteen, you realize the world is much bigger than you.

Cause when you're fifteen, and you're with the coolest guy in school, you think nothing could be better.

But when you're nineteen, you realize it's the nerds and geeks who can give you a better future.

Cause when you're fifteen, you think you're still at the age when you're allowed to make mistakes.

But when you're nineteen, you realize you gotta look before you leap.

Ignorance is not bliss; It's stupidity.

ROAR

2010-02-25T23:32:00.012+08:00

I'm in the rush of time. So there won't be much words. Start from the very first day of chinese new year.

All the girls, opps.. Faye's not here.

Gathering at Sheong's house at night. Thank God no one was drunk that night :p

After having a round of basketball. I was sweaty.

I shall not comment much :p

The next day, got up and went for brunch at Pizza Hut, and seriously the service sucks!

At night gambling at Chia Yong's place.

"Mao Si"

3rd day, went to the Temple for annual cleansing sins, and also the wishing tree =)

Jing Jing :)

Me :)

Faye, I caught you in action!

Limun :)

At night dinner at Cheang Mai. Waited for 15mins only get our seats, then another 1 hour and 30 mins plus plus only our food arrived. I bet they earn alot eh this time?

Sin Sing stalking on Faye.

Faye turned into Aunty Lay Poh!

oi, koya!

The next day, went over to Yaa Pin's house and played with the Wii! And it was fun!

The last day of me in KB, had " mee hun kuey " as breakfast before I left :)

Stay tune for Faye's 19th birthday bash :D

Her scarlet letter.

2010-02-16T05:37:00.002+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR & HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY.

Apparently I've survived V day. Woots me.

And hows the rest of the world. In love. (: And the many more, who aren't. I guess it really is just another day.

I've really lost my touch to blog. Well maybe because my world used to be small and now it's getting bigger. I'm trying to relate to people. I'm trying to be ... normal. And for that, I slowly lose myself. Well it's tit for that.

Everything is a choice. To wake up in the morning is the choice to not give up. And sometimes it seems like it's taken for granted. To just live. It's a choice. To continue. It's stamina, not a sprint. To just endure. Every day. Within restrictions, within boundaries. Sigh.

I've chosen me enough already. It's time to just suck it up and realize that I cannot be normal.

Hello baby, mama's back.

Currently listening: Howie day-Collide.

Genting&TheCurve.

2010-02-10T19:02:00.007+08:00

Last Saturday, Ah Bi suddenly came up with this idea of going to Genting. So, me and Limun canceled our plan to go to One Utama. We asked Fengyi and Kwang Yau along.

Stopped by at a petrol station and saw those monkeys when we were on our way to Genting.

Since Fengyi&KwangYau haven't eaten yet so we sat down at a porridge shop.

Limun and Ah Bi imitating the picture behind them.
Eating sweet potato before we started playing with the Flying Coaster.
That's us up there.
Flying Coaster was so scary, and for someone like me who are afraid of height just couldn't take it. The whole game I was closing my eyes until the end. The guys insisted to play for the second round but I didn't join them. Scary la weh. After Flying Coaster, we went for this event in Arena of Stars since we got free tickets from some random guys. It was boring at the start, but things got interesting when all the leng zais finally came out, especially Ling Yu Zhong.

Lucky us, a guy came up to us and offer us another tickets to the middle seat.
Simply love the background and the lighting.
LIN YU ZHONG!!! AH ZEEEE!!!

Group photo.
Chilled at Starbucks before we left Genting.

After we dropped Fengyi and KwangYau, 3 of us went for drinking at Opera, we only left like 45 minutes before the place closed. So, we were just forcing ourselves to finished the beer. Someone got drunk that night *cough cough*

The next day, went to The Curve with Limun, Ah Bi, Fengyi, Jeff and Wen Jiang.

Lecka-Lecka's yummylicious ice-creams.

Trying out each other's one.

Bonding with the Avatar.
Walked around the flea market and also The Curve. Then went for dinner at The Apartment. The food over there was kinda expensive, but somehow I'm glad that I was lucky enough 'cause I picked the right meal and it was nice. And I met some Filipinos who works there.

Jeff with his new Blackberry Bold 9700.

My fish&chips.
Ah Bi's Andrew's Pasta.
Fengyi's Shepherd's Pie.

Watched The Fame, the movie was okay-okay but I like how they dance, it's really amazing. I wished I was born with this kinda talent. =)

P.s 2 more days to go, I can't wait to be back.

Now listening: Nichole Nordeman-I am.

Photobooth.

2010-02-10T03:12:00.003+08:00

A very short update about how my life has been going on. Last Saturday, went to Genting with Limun, Fengyi, Ah Bi & Kwang Yau. Sunday, shopping and movie at The Curve with Limun, Fengyi, Ah Bi, Jeff & Wen Jiang. Anyway, the pictures below was taken at Starbucks@Genting.

Mid valley; Shopping Spree :D

2010-02-03T20:24:00.009+08:00

On a very one fine day, to be more specific, the day before Jing Jing went back to KB. We planned to hang out together. So we make our move early in the morning at 10:30am to Mid Valley. Reach there about 11am so we had our brunch at Sushi Zanmai.
A decent one.
MONEYYYY :D
Jing with her MONEEYYYY.

Faye's MONEEEEYYY.
Mun's MONEEEYYY.
Our AH!
Jing Yu's MONEEEYYY!
And his AH!

It's making me hungry now.

It's delicious that I couldn't control my expression.

My all time favorite - Soft Shell Crab!

The BFF.

La Senza!
We did some recording inside the mall. 3 videos, which is confidential to publish it to the public.
Ignore me.
My imaginary friend.
We spent like almost 8 hours there. So before we left, we had our dinner at Little Penang Cafe.

Mine, and Li Mun's laksa. YUMMMM.
Faye's the oh-so-normal laksa :p
Jing Yu's nasi lemak. Me loves the peanuts :D
Jing's kuey tiaw goreng.

Will be meeting them during Chinese New Year. I can't wait! But firstly, I need to get all my shopping done before I'm back to KB :)

Feelings.

2010-01-18T20:45:00.003+08:00

Feelings is such a fragile thing; with a slightest shake, it can resonate your actions.

But sometimes, people just don't realize the existence of such fragility and ends up hurting others more than they intentionally plan to.

Feelings are hard to understand, minds are hard to read.

But if fate let us meet and bonds tie us connected to each other, why can't we all take that extra mile to widen up our horizons?

Open up our boundaries, look outside the window and ponder - how far are you willing to go and withstand difficulties with people who mean a world to you?

Yes, people get into your nerves. People upset you. When that happens, you'll start feeling as if the whole world against you and nothing just seems to go well for you.

But hey, isn't that what life is all about? Nothing goes the way you want it to be. And that's the challenge we have to undertake.

The choice of paths are already laid out in front of us. All we have to do is to choose one which suits us best. There's no right or wrong in this case, but it's how we decide to live our lives to the fullest. That's what which decides who we currently are and who we want to be.

It's never too late to switch paths midway. Everyone deserves a second chance. But the question here is, are you willing to go through all the trouble of turning back?

Some people keep personal matters to themselves.

I wouldn't care less if they mean nothing to me.

But if it involves me in the scenario, don't just shut yourself up in the corner and start exploding one day. In the long run, you're the one who's gonna suffer the most.

What's wrong with opening up and sharing your thoughts? Tell me what you truly feel. Nobody's perfect - so are you, so am I.

Ignorance is bliss, yes.

But ignorance is cruel as well.

How would you feel if you were to put yourself in the shoes of the party being ignored?

Go figure.

Currently listening to : Lara Fabian - Immortelle.

Till then. Toodles!

the awesomness of travelling in 16 days.

2010-01-09T23:12:00.019+08:00

Well, after going through the error for uploading the pictures, and re-uploading them again from time to time, I shall make everything short and simple. You know, tak de mood to crap anymore or else I would have this posted on my blog since yesterday. Anyways, 1st of December, flying over from my hometown to LCCT early in the morning, then went to KLIA for my flight to Kota Kinabalu. Quite tiring actually, so i was spending my time in a cafeteria, paying 10 bucks to use the computer there for only 55 minutes. What to do la?

In KLIA waiting for our flight.
Phoebe is freezinggg.

Can you feel the excitement? :p

After 3 hours flight and here we are at Kota Kinabalu. No joke but Nick's house was as huge as a castle. The swimming pool are still under construction, but we will go there again someday just to swim. Soon there's gonna be a bar and a pool table inside. Cool uh? Nick brought us to this place near the beach and we had coconut! Walking around spending time to wait for Leon's flight to reach.
The next day, went to 2 shopping malls and this picture was taken at One Borneo parking lot. Why la KB don't have such big malls? At least when i'm back to my hometown i can still do shopping!
Me, trying the Flaming Lamborghini.
This is like after a few days, we were hanging out with Nick's friend, Affiq and Jia Hui at some restaurant. Quite cool la that place.

In the plane flying to Manila.

This place is next to our hotel, you can play pool for free as long as you order their drinks.
Ignore that Vogue cigarettes. It sucks btw. But San Miguel is good, and it's cheaper than Coke. If Kevi were there, he must have ordered like dozens of them.

Went to 168 the next day and the place were crowded. But they do sell really cheap stuffs, when i say cheap, i really mean it.
This is how people park their car.

At night, we went to the Mall Of Asia.

Pork Sisik.

The next morning, before leaving from Manila to Angeles City, I had this awesome breakfast called Crispy Pata. But Nick's says that there are somewhere else selling this which taste alot better than this. Wow!
Their mini bus.
We are going to ride on the tricycle.
Red Devil's Pork Chop, the best thing I ever had in my life. SWEAR!
Next day, Uncle Dede brought us to this firing range and guess what?
You see the bullets?
Real bullet. No joke.
We tried this with the magnum gun. Well, this are just pictures and we were just posing. I have the real video of us shooting in my laptop.

Sargent practicing with the.. i think sniper?

Our hotel that we stayed in Angeles city.
And this picture it taken at Labuan, yeah after we were back from Philipines.

Some long adventurous happened to us at Mountain Kundasang. This was taken after we found a hotel, like finally.

The next morning, awww i smell fresh air!

See the blue painted dog? hahaha.
My fake tattoo.
We went to the waterfall and i like seeing those fishies surrounding my leg! But no pictures, hehehe.

That's Mountain Kinabalu behind us.

At night, Nick's house was having a party. Some carolers came over and everyone was singing, i can feel the Christmas spirit!

Affiq teaching me to play his own created songs. lol
Next day, went to Pulau Manukan.

Banana boat was way too fun! I even asked for one more round but well, we played para-flying! Me and Nick was like wow i'm so gonna try this again next time. We were flying so high that time, too bad no pictures :/

Leaving Kota Kinabalu on the 15th ): But wait, I'll be back for the sake of the foods, and also Nick and his family.
Sad thing was, our flight to KLIA delayed and crashed with our connecting flight back to KB. But KLIA provided us the best service and we stayed at Shangri-la hotel that night. I shall recommend any travelers who wanted to find the best place to stay in KL, one of them would be Shangri-la hotel. They provide the best service, and their breakfast is yummy!

Last picture taken in KLIA before I was back to my hometown.
Phew, hand is getting tiring and I shall leave this post alone. Class at 10 tomorrow, let's pray that I won't missed any classes tomorrow alright?

P.S. What's the next place to go on my next trip? Suggestions anyone? I'm considering of Taiwan, India or either Bali.

Confession of the dumb blog.

2009-12-28T03:44:00.002+08:00

Looking through all the post that I had already posted, i think my blog looks dumb.
Dumb in a way as in, boring, lifeless, too little pictures, too little words and a blog that don't mean anything.
My blog is boring because:
1. I am not active in updating my blog, especially when it comes to pictures, I'm just too lazy to upload because it takes a long time.
My blog is lifeless because:
2. The blogger herself is living in a very lifeless way these days. What else can I do because by the time I woke up, it's already evening. So the daily routine usually are: Dinner, pool, yumcha and home. ( Maybe supper once in a while )
My blog is too little pictures because:
3. Refer back to number 1.
My blog is too little words because:
4. She couldn't think of anything to blog about. The whole damn brain is thinking about other stuffs which is not convenient to be blog and show it to the public, so instead of blogging here, she will just blog at her own private blog. Yes, privacy stuffs :)

Above are briefly about the reasons why I think my blog is dumb. Anyways, pictures taken during my vacation might takes a longer time to upload, there's some in Phoebe's camera and some at Nick's. But whatever, no one is reading my blog because the blogger is a lazy ass to upload this dumb blog :P

Still, I feel sad to leave KB again. 'Cause when I'm back to Subang, there won't be time for me to waste my time chilling around like what I'm doing now. So sadddd..

WHEEE.

2009-12-24T02:15:00.003+08:00

I am not satisfied with the blog skin i found. But just forget about it.

Will upload the pictures that was taken during my vacation, very soon :)

2009-12-09T14:13:00.003+08:00

Philippines was too great that i don't feel like leaving.

I love their foods, i love the peoples and all the nice things at here.

I will come back to you.

2009-12-01T11:18:00.000+08:00

Sabah, i'm coming.
I am gonna rule the country (:

2009-11-29T06:11:00.003+08:00

There are some mistakes you just delete from your memory,
but there are some you just can't stop thinking about it.

Now playing: Ashley Tisdale-Love me for me.

2009-11-27T07:38:00.003+08:00

I found an easiest way by earning 50 bucks in 5 hours!
Things happened this way, one random night, I was driving Toy Sei's car, together along with Rui Siang heading down to the beach just to chill out the night.
Brought some snacks along too.
Sat beside the beach and talked, and after awhile Toy Sei was sleepy and asked us to go back home.
But me and Rui Siang was such a lazy dumbass to move our arses from the chair we were sitting comfortably.
So we told Toy Sei to leave first, we'll just stay here till the next morning and you come and pick us back, but with one condition, you have to give us 50 bucks each.
After rejecting Toy Sei for so many times, he finally went back and we started chilling there till the next morning.
It was so damn scary luh. Can die you know. We were wondering why are we so crazy like this? And we have never done something like this before.
Time passes, and it's already morning. Toy Sei came and fetched us for breakfast.
It was a wild and challenging experience together with Rui Siang, thank God we survived through the dark night.
Well, earning 50 bucks ain't that hard eh?

2009-11-25T03:35:00.003+08:00

I had an exploration of the entire Kota Bharu today.
Together along with Toy Sei, Kevin and Sin Sing.
Things happened this way, we supposed to have dinner at a restaurant, but it was crowded and we have to wait for like almost an hour. So we changed to another restaurant. Reached there, and it's closed! And my friend said that let's pass through the flood water at Kampung Cina and have belut at PCB.
Was waiting for Toy Sei to fetch us with his Frontier, so that we can only go through the food water. It took like almost 30 minutes to reach PCB, and the restaurant was closed, again!
But the urge of having seafood as our dinner tonight doesn't seems to give up, so i suggested them to go to Cheang Mai at Wakaf Bharu which takes another 30 minutes++ to travel there. From North to the South this time.
Everyone of us was starving like hell, and we were excited to have our dinner at Cheang Mai! Too bad when we reached there, the restaurant was fucking closed! DAMN.
Kevin suggested to go to Kulim which is somewhere around the railway station, took us another 10 minutes to travel there again. Okay, but this time, thank God it was open! and thank God for the delicious dinner we had just now.
Shall go there for dinner another time, it was absolutely awesome :)
Not feeling a slight of disappointment after traveling for so long, after we had our yummylicious dinner.

Now Playing: Amy Winehouse-Rehab.

2009-11-24T01:19:00.002+08:00

Ever since i got into college, i always wonder what is my future that lies in front of me.
Looking at myself, i think i haven't gotten myself into the situation.
A situation when i started to realize i've been fooling around all these while.
A situation when i started to buck up and study hard to at least score 3.0 in my CGPA.
A situation to further my degree to U.S, and really make it happen.
It's kinda upset to know that i fucked up in my studies during the semester two.
What i've done during semester two: procrastinate, splurging money more than i expected, excessive drinking, pool, fooling around and etc etc.
But i've made up my mind that i'm going to really put all my efforts for the next semester, i really wish it will not get screwed up again.
I wouldn't want to see my future became like some lifeless people out there.
Because all i want is to earn big money and live my life to the fullest.
Well, screw the people who think i'm a spoiled brat.

2009-11-23T02:20:00.003+08:00

It's amazing how one day someone new walks into your life,
And you wonder how you have ever lived without them..

Now playing: Black Eyed Peas-Union.

2009-11-20T04:56:00.003+08:00

Just came back from Xiang Long's place, with Rui Siang, Kevin and Jessie.
Played truth or dare and tried out some shit which i'm not gonna reveal it here.
And, Xiang Long is going back to Ukraine on Saturday, will only see him next summer :/
Still, i'm missing the friends back at Subang and i'm looking forward for the vacation on December. Can't wait!

2009-11-18T17:25:00.007+08:00

I had an awesome weekend spending with my friends in Subang. Last Friday, woke up early and went to the theater room to support Phoebe and the others in their theater finals. The play was great and everyone likes it.

Kevi and Leon during the play.

I'm trying to give Arfu a head shot. BANG!

Went to the hospital and visited Nick. Poor Nick was looking so pale and weak.
A group photo with Nick the patient and Daniel the doctor.
Arfu the OKU - Orang Kurang Upaya.

Take one.
Take two.
Take three.
Take four. And Leon fell into the pool.

The next day, me and Phoebe had a girls outing at Bukit Bintang. Bumped into Ivan at Sungai Wang!
We then went to Lecka-Lecka for some alcoholic drinks. I had Hoegarden and Phoebe had her Corona and a cup of ice cream.
I like this one.

Headed to Pavilion and did some shopping. And had our dinner at a restaurant called Emperor Q.

After dinner and we got back home to rest. I dozed off like 11 something that night. Had finally spent my day wisely. I'm missing the guys back at Subang now. Damn, i can't wait to see them again.

Till here.

2009-11-18T03:59:00.000+08:00

Here it comes in the morning
I’m just trying to forget
Keep it real, keep it simple
And somehow just get out of bed
And this city is endless
I’m as cold as it’s stone
Yeah this city is endless
And I’m, I’m walking alone

Sing to me, like how you used to :(

2009-11-10T00:46:00.003+08:00

Hello peoples, just to let you guys know if anyone of you are looking for secondhand phones which is still in a very good condition and cheaper price, you can go to this website :
http://kelantan-2ndhand.blogspot.com/
It is sold by a friend of mine which is a distributor of secondhand phones in Kelantan.
Feel free to contact him for any inquiry, if there is any secondhand phones you wish to get.
Thank you!

2009-11-09T12:25:00.003+08:00

Subang, i am coming to you tomorrow!
It's been a good time, hanging around with friends almost everyday.
What else? Pool, dinner, supper, Dota, Counter-strike, pub, breakfast or maybe movie session at Kevin's place.
We stayed up until the sun rises, and it's time for breakfast.
After breakfast, we will be heading home to sleep.
By the time everyone is awake, it's almost evening or night.
This is how i survive through these two weeks.
And surprisingly, i am awake at this very moment.
I am feeling hungry, but probably i will just close my laptop and continue my sleep after this.
One more thing, i dreamed about Dota this morning, what on earth had just happened to me?
I have to really thanks Kevin and Swee Shyang cause i've been playing Dota with them most of the time.
Games are addictive, serious shit.

Now playing: Yellowcard - Only one.

2009-11-07T23:56:00.002+08:00

This is a post, briefly about my college life during semester two.
During the second semester, i am no longer in the same class with the previous semester M2 students anymore.
How time passes so fast that we used to have so much fun during semester one, though i hardly hang out with them.
But in semester two, i hardly hang out with friends that i used to hang out with during the previous semester.
I started mixing with Phoebe, Leon, Kevi, Arfu and Nick, and they are really nice to hang out with.
Our dreams is to further our degree to US, to work hard and earn money.
Kevi's gonna own a strip club someday.
Phoebe's gonna own a fashion shop designed by her someday.
Leon's gonna own a casino someday.
And my dreams is to own a high end shopping complex someday.
Well, this is not much about my semester two life, that is why in the beginning, i said briefly.

Now playing: Funeral for a friend - Into oblivion.

2009-11-07T12:46:00.005+08:00

Previously, me and the bff actually planned for a gathering with just a few friends of us to meet up at Mid Valley. Early in the morning, got up and ready and took cab to the Ktm station to Sentral. Waited for like 30minutes at Mc Donalds while having my breakfast. Soon, Li Mun, Jing Jing and Jing Yu came and so does Ru Ren, Beng Keat and another friend of Ru Ren as well. So we make our move and headed to Mid Valley. Well, i'll just let the pictures to do the talking.

Ru Ren and his another friend.

The sweet couple. Don't lah malu!
The Playboy was promoting their fragrance, there are even hot chics dressed up like a bunny.

This is Jing Yu.

The BFF.

After walking around the shopping mall, while waiting for our movie, we sat down at a desert shop and to chill ourselves out.

Seriously need to meet up with them again soon! xoxo

2009-11-07T12:40:00.001+08:00

Tremendous storm had just sailed through the lonely isle
The sevens seas that i travelled through it
Fantasy & Desires had been a dream
Reaching the impossible is my dream
Even my soul doesn't rest in peace

The soul that lived in my heart creating reality
Stars in the sky shoot through the night
Only wish that i could wish
The only wish i wish is Happiness & Loyalty
Courage Soul strengthen my life
A new life had been reborn
My Friend
What should i say?
Together we shared tears & drops
Even we shared happiness & Smile
Friendship is what i treasured